How to Run a Marathon and Still Feel Pretty - By Ambassador Kristen

Dear Loved Ones,

I have been contemplating about how to update all of you on my chemotherapy treatment plans this summer time, which just so take place to have fallen correct smack dab in the center of starting to be a Beth Millner Jewelry ambassador. For a when I was not absolutely sure if it was the worst timing or the ideal timing when I was picked, but then I understood that this is precisely how lifestyle goes: you really do not get to decide on the timing of your life’s worries or your chances. You only have management on how you pick to believe about them, and how or if you come to a decision to act on them. For instance, I could say that breast cancer is the worst point or the finest factor that’s occurred to me, mainly because the two are genuine. Operation and chemo are not particularly points that folks rush to sign up for, but at the very same time, that is precisely what it took to discover how a lot of angels I have in my corner and how kind and generous and thoughtful the entire world can be. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen battling breast cancer

 

Now that I’m approaching Week 8 of the 12-Week Chemo Marathon that I never wanted to indicator up for, sponsored by the club I’d never ever required to be part of (breast most cancers), I have understood a personal real truth: marathons suck. I mean, I’m sure there’s at the very least one individual out there who enjoys jogging so significantly that they glance forward to beating the crap out of their bodies for miles and miles, and that possibly there’s some strange runner’s euphoria I have nevertheless to faucet into, but dang! Not gonna lie, it was much easier at the starting when you’re at the starting line and there are a gazillion of your bystander peeps watching you and cheering you on. And I’m certain there will be just as quite a few there waiting for me to cross the finish line. But when you are on mile 8 of 12, and there aren’t as quite a few persons on the sidelines observing you any more, your operating receives rather unsightly, and so do your thoughts. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hear from chemo treatment

 

And speaking of that, there’s practically nothing that’ll stir up your notions of splendor and ugliness rather like a pleasant spherical of balding chemo. But then once again, that’s the total position of this story, a reminder that we have whole manage of how we choose to see a little something, and we can both seize an possibility or allow it pass us by. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hair from chemo treatment

I never know about you, but due to the fact I didn’t program on getting all my hair tumble out several periods in my existence, I figured now was the chance to flip a couple of lemons into lemonade. 

It was a number of months ago when I was ready to commence pulling all my hair out in clumps, rather much ideal on program, about “mile 4” in the marathon. I realized that as tricky as it was, I’d need to make peace with indicating goodbye to my hair, as “unpretty” as that could make me experience, and I’d had a excellent idea that would distract me ample to get through at least the following several miles. 

I was heading to laugh my way via the complete issue, and I was going to make absolutely sure that a person else benefited from it, also. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hair from chemo treatments

And which is just what I did. I went out on social media and told all my pals that for each individual $20 they donated, that they’d get their names place in a hat for a large drawing, and that the particular person whose identify was drawn would get the honor of choosing the design and style that my Mumma would attract on the back of my bald head, once I’d shaved off all my hair. The proceeds had been break up similarly among the Delta County Cancer Alliance and Wildlife Limitless of Delta County. Collectively my angels raised almost $2,500 to break up in between two of my most loved charities!

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen with a new short haircut

It took me three haircuts this calendar year to get to my bald canvas. These of you who understood me 6 months ago realized that I experienced long hair down to my lessen again, so my hair was a big element of my identification. I donated the 1st foot of it to Little ones With Hair Loss, so that an individual else would be able to have on a wig that I was equipped to expand for them myself. I’d completed this after in advance of and had determined that as soon as my hair reaches a specific size, I’m going to hold accomplishing this until finally I’m no for a longer time all around to hold increasing it. Consider of all the wigs that’ll be out in the globe soon after so quite a few a long time! Tends to make me smile. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen having fun with her new hair!

My next haircut celebration was going from my shortened bob haircut size to tomboy length, which was incredibly more challenging than going pool-cue bald. Probably it reminded me of the past time I’d experienced my hair this small in next grade, a very little child mistook me for a boy, and my psyche by no means recovered. Probably it is for the reason that I just really don’t believe brief, brief hair is all that flattering on me. Regardless of what the purpose, I had to energy-smile my way by means of that overall week ahead of the authentic shave took area, and that gave me a cleanse slate in extra strategies than a person. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen with a freshly shaved head

Nothing at all claims “I appreciate you” very like your great hairdresser good friend agreeing to turn you into a bowling ball (I have been advised I have a flawlessly spherical head) and your 75-yr-previous mother agreeing to attract anything on the again of your head for charity. And which is exactly what they did. The gal whose identify had been drawn needed a hummingbird and a pink breast most cancers ribbon in the style, and thinking about that the canvas was moveable pores and skin included in a mild stubble, I believe my mom definitely kicked ass on the finished solution! 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen used her bald head from chemo treatments as a canvas for breast cancer awareness art

It’s been two weeks jogging close to my corner of the world with no hair, and the component I haven’t stated right up until now, since I’ve been much too busy pretending that becoming bald is a finish hoot and a hilarious adventure, is that oh boy, there are days when I experience sooooooo unappealing. I have place a few photos of my new fashion out on social media, and numerous people have commented on how lovely I seem. But I don’t seriously imagine them. I’m certain that they’re saying it just to make me sense better, simply because, you know, Mile 8. The component where by I’m “ugly running” and men and women really do not have time to sit there on the sidelines and cheer me on just about every 2nd of the working day mainly because they have their very own life to stay. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen's mom painting her head

I understood without the need of a doubt that I’d have unpleasant days in the course of this marathon. The issue is, even when you know there will be struggles uphill, from time to time you really do not see them coming right up until you are proper smack dab in the center of one. And all you can do is admit the hill, suck it up, buttercup, and retain plodding since faster or later the ground will be level again. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen during chemo treatment

The splendor I’ve been in a position to just take with me on this marathon considering the fact that the commencing is my Beth Millner parts. Regardless of whether I’ve experienced lengthy hair or shorter hair or no hair, they’ve been with me for the full marathon, like a talisman defending me from sensation unpleasant or from feeling like a full failure. They remind me of so several lifetime lessons I want to find out this time all-around. When I head into every chemo mile marker, I’ve got a various operate of art accompanying me. A person 7 days it is my bumblebee pedant, reminding me to hold active and to preserve shifting. The upcoming it might be my heart pendant, reminding me of all the like and assist I’m using with me into each individual of these periods. One more is my butterfly selection, representing the modifications that I’m heading by way of. Perhaps I’m emotion unpleasant at this phase of my journey since that is how it’s intended to go, like how the caterpillar may possibly really feel in advance of it cocoons. But appear at how I’ll be remodeled at the conclude of this marathon!

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen enjoying life while undergoing cancer treatment

I’m hunting ahead to sharing with you my complete line, my transformation, and my tale as it proceeds to unfold. I’ve often stated that my objective is to direct these types of an unconventional and intriguing life so that I’ll have genuinely fantastic stories to inform when I’m 100 yrs previous in the nursing dwelling, and boy, is this calendar year at any time creating! Thank you, my angels and cheerleaders, for putting yourselves along my marathon route and rooting for me. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen enjoying life while undergoing cancer treatment

Coincidentally, future week you could virtually cheer me on, if you’re in the Escanaba-Gladstone region. My partner Todd and godson Noah and I are all “competing” in the MISH mini-triathlon on August 27. Noah will be carrying out the 3-mile kayak portion, I will be biking 13.5 miles, and Todd will be functioning the 5k finale. I’m not sure I’ll be breaking any data for velocity on Saturday, but you can most assuredly rely on me not staying a quitter. 

Let’s go, Group G! 

Be delighted, be properly.

Kris G